This is a random thought materializing out of nowhere, literally. Almost like this blog. When I first started writing, I had no idea what I wanted to say. So, that is exactly what I said. (Push to start!) It was a leap of faith, indeed. After my first post, Word press asked me to write an introduction. That prompted the idea for the next one. (Hey! My name is..) And so the story went. I wrote about whatever felt important at the time. As I was on a quest to identify feelings, I began to observe and capture my current state and it started pouring out into words. (Doubt). Very often references come from real life and from within my community. (Degree of Difficulty).

I started to share the articles with friends and family only…

I want to show myself
And yet here I hide.
I don’t rely on myself
Who else is there to find.
I want to show myself
But I am scared inside.
How will anybody else see
Things I miss in plain sight.
I want to show myself
Not the shell outside.
It is a good decoy
Sometimes, I like it more than I.
I want to show myself
Not this hide and seek I try.
One moment on top of the world
One moment on the floor I lie.
I want to show myself
That has not caught another eye.
For the ones who really see me
Will know there is more inside.
God, please give me strength to be myself!

Now, read it again as yourselves!

I always tend to write in first person, for many reasons. Firstly, so that I can get into the true feeling experienced by…

Feeling upbeat for no real reason
Don’t even want to know why.
It’s uplifting everything around me
Makes me want to fly.

With the sense of self on a trip

Now, I’m growing and finding my way back

Comfortable with who I am within.

It’s important to love myself first
C’mon! Bring out that smile!
I may have always known I’m special
I had just forgotten for a while!

@thethinkingcaptain

Becoming aware of my contradictions and then embracing them was a big step for me. What contradictions do you experience?

Think about it!

Until next time… @thethinkingcaptain

I thought of changing the name of the topic. It may be that many do not know what it means and not read further and others may be curious to know more and read on. I decided to take that chance.

The words, Ubiquitous Assimilation, sound very fancy. A vocabulary bomb, actually! I was bombed too when I first came across it, I did not know the meaning or the concept. Let me give you a little context.

I saw it in a film called Detachment ( I highly recommend it but with a strong word of caution – it is not an easy watch ) where the teacher played by Adrien Brody is trying to motivate a bunch of delinquent, socially oppressed teenagers from in his class. So taken aback I was by the idea that it became embedded within me.

I adopted my own hybrid version of this…